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Rooted & Rising: Growth from the Greenhouse
About Breaking the Chains of Perfectionism
What happens when a pastor's kid who's internalized the need for perfection faces real-life chaos? Victoria Bowers' story is one of struggle, surrender, and supernatural freedom that will resonate with anyone who's ever felt crushed by their own expectations.
Growing up homeschooled in a pastor's family, Victoria absorbed an unspoken message: be perfect. This mindset served her well initially—marrying young, creating an idyllic military family life, and experiencing an "easy" first baby seemed to confirm she was doing everything right. But when military deployments, relocations, and a challenging second child shattered her perfect bubble, Victoria found herself spiraling into anxiety and panic attacks.
The breaking point came during the early days of COVID-19. On her son's first birthday, Victoria's husband received an emergency call ordering him back to base immediately, leaving her alone with two small children amid worldwide uncertainty. In this moment of complete vulnerability, God used her father's simple wisdom to cut through the noise: "Anxiety is a spirit. What are you holding onto so tightly that you can't let God take control?"
This conversation reveals the powerful moment of surrender that followed—a prayer on her knees that led to immediate freedom from panic attacks that Victoria maintains to this day. Her journey illuminates how perfectionism often masks a deeper spiritual issue: a lack of trust in God's goodness and control.
"There's so much beauty in the mess," Victoria now shares from experience. "There's so much beauty when it's not perfect, and there's so much beauty in that hard season where God will show His glory." If you're struggling with anxiety, perfectionism, or the weight of expectations, this episode offers a roadmap to the freedom that comes not through achieving perfection, but through surrendering our desire for it.
Listen now to discover how releasing control might be the very key to finding the peace you've been searching for all along. What might God be asking you to surrender today?
Join us for our conversation with Victoria about motherhood and letting go when mothers go to be with the Father.
Well, girls, good morning to you. I am so thankful to have my next guest on Rooted and Rising Growth from the Greenhouse. I'm Denise Jackson. I'm your host. That just means I've lived through a lot of stuff, I think. But today I have Victoria Bowers. She is really a breath of fresh air for my life. Every time I talk to her and we talk often because she's part of the EASE Greenhouse team she invigorates my life. God uses her so mightily, and so I'm so thankful that finally, we have found a way to get this conversation going for you to be a part of. So welcome, victoria Bowers. Thank you for figuring out Zoom, so we could do this.
Victoria Bowers:I'm so happy that I get to be here. We've literally been talking about this forever, and if I can't be there in person with you, this is the next best thing. So I'm so happy that we get to do this now.
Denise Jackson:I feel like it's like this opening the floodgates, because there are so many friends out there that I have that are not with me but do have great stories of redemption, of following Jesus and knowing that Abba Father is their Father and loves them so much, and the Holy Spirit giving us power. So I'm thankful. I'm so thankful that we're doing this and we're doing it at the right time. It's perfect timing. So, to get started, I'm going to ask you just to give us a little overview of your young life, because we know that there are things in our young life that we go through, no matter how great our family is, that will require healing and forgiveness and just wisdom to come from that. We know that because we live in the earth and the earth is not perfect. So take it away, victoria.
Victoria Bowers:Yeah, I'm so excited too. Yeah, I always joke I had such an interesting childhood growing up. It was beautiful, unique, very unique, beautiful, unique, very unique, um, and I couldn't have asked for a better childhood. In so many ways and even through the, the painful things that I got to grow through, like has positioned me for now. But, um, I grew up I'm the only girl, three brothers, um, which that itself is like. I mean, I came right out the gate and God's like hey, she's got to be a strong one. No, it's great.
Victoria Bowers:I love um to this day, like my brothers are my best friend and I tell my daughter, cause I have my daughter and then two boys, um, I'm like brothers are amazing. Like I know you want a sister, but oh my goodness, brothers are amazing. I'm like brothers are amazing. Like I know you want a sister, but oh my goodness, brothers are amazing, and so. But we were homeschooled and my parents were pastors. We got to a lot of missions and just in the US and got to. All of our vacations were in like a semi-truck as a family and we were just getting to travel around and so so much is just. It was so beautiful because I got to really experience God and understand Holy spirit. So young and um experienced just so much beauty of of walking in his presence. But then in my later years, with my teenage years, you know um life happened and my parents began to struggle and so, uh, when I was, 19, my parents got divorced.
Denise Jackson:They, they began to struggle with each other. Yeah, my parents began to struggle. And so, when I was 19, my parents got divorced. They began to struggle with each other.
Victoria Bowers:Yeah, they began to struggle with each other and so you know, and it's each. It's so interesting as an adult and you know as your kid you don't, you understand only certain parts of things. And as an adult, kind of working through your own stuff you look at your parents and you're like, oh okay, like dad struggled with this because of this from his childhood and mom struggled with this because of this in their childhood, and like God just gets to heal those broken places.
Denise Jackson:And I love that. So I just have to stop you right there, because I just love that you understand at a really young age that you can forgive those mistakes and still see all the good that came into your life too, and that wisdom comes from above, and so you know. I'm just glad that you had the chance to learn that so early.
Victoria Bowers:Yeah, for me it felt like it took a while. Life. Yeah, it's it, for me it took. It felt like it took a while, but, uh, it, it really like it.
Victoria Bowers:It did come early because, you know, in the sense of um, god just kind of showed me it was like what if you could love your dad and the maybe the way that he never didn't receive the father's love here on earth, well, you could just love him Like you love your little kids here on earth, well, you could just love him Like you love your little kids, and and um, and it was the most healing self thing to myself is to just love. You know, even like when my brothers and I were going through our own hurt with it of like not saying I did it perfect at all, but like what if you just took a moment to just love that person the way that God is just loving them, you know, and so, and just releasing things slowly and, like you know, surrendering it more and more, because it was a really hard thing as a pastor's kid I think anybody whoever was a pastor's kid, I mean, I was a pastor's kid from before I was born, so that was all I knew. And then, when we became, when I was a teenager, my dad decided to focus on his business and his ministry and that was when we stepped away from him pastoring and you know, like the enemy just loves to come in and sneak in, but in ways like that, you know, and he was struggling at that time and but you know, you look back and you're like, okay, like God set all of this up for me to learn through it and even the struggles that I've had, because as a pastor, you still kind of have this persona of like you need to make sure that you're well behaved as a little kid and you need to. You know it starts really young and you need to make sure that you know you're always dressed properly and you don't backtalk, and you know, and so like we were, we were homeschooled, we didn't have the outside influences, we were good kids and but as you get older, you kind of internalize that as perfection and being perfect and stuff.
Victoria Bowers:So um, which is a hard weight for a kid to carry. It is, it's a hard weight and you know it happens. So, without even thinking it, like I catch myself, yeah, you're just like, oh, you're behaving, you're supposed to listen and you know, even with my kids I'll be like you know. And then I'm like supposed to be crazy, like kids are kind of supposed to be like obedient, yes, and respectful, but like it's okay for them to be a little crazy too. You know, god made them a little unruly. It's supposed to be a little bit wild, yes, I agree.
Denise Jackson:Individuality come out, yes, and bloom. I love it when your kids are painting, because they just bloom so wildly. They are so much fun.
Victoria Bowers:That little girl, man Bella, is amazing and they're so individual, like yes, and if I just like, let them like okay, yeah, the things they come up with I'm like you guys are amazing to me.
Denise Jackson:And they are. I felt like that with my kids. You know they would create and we need to give space to our kids to like. Bella takes music lessons, but she also needs a chance to just create her own music, yes, and see the value. And now she knows how to use the instrument. But now she should just use it for how she wants to make herself happy, but also for praising God, and I just think that's something that you are so good at letting your kids do, and I was not as good at it, but mine did it anyway. They were such strong spirits. God knew who I needed to raise, because they're strong every one of them and yours are strong but they're getting that support and it really is a blessing to see that.
Victoria Bowers:It is. It's so fun to be. We were always like really strong to all my brothers and I like we, we're big personalities and it's really fun at Christmas because we are insanely loud. Yeah, I love it. I love like, I love the craziness, so it's super fun. Not that it's always easy, because when you have so many different things and your kids are all being super loud and you're like and I have to sometimes remind myself like this is beautiful, this is how it's supposed to be, but it is, it is really beautiful. I do love it so much.
Denise Jackson:Okay, so now I want you to go into a little bit about when you and Nathan were first married and and just right after your parents had gone through a divorce. One of the things I was thinking when we talked about that was like you've had a pretty strong marriage that you followed, but then all of a sudden it fell apart and then, not very long after that, you're going into your own marriage. What were your thoughts going through that process? Do you look back and say, say, wow, I'm glad we made it. Or do you say, oh, my gosh, that was like exactly what I needed.
Victoria Bowers:I don't know you know it is interesting because it was. I always saw my parents as like such a pillar and I think most people do, but they really were. They always had their stuff, but, um, as a family, we were just very connected and we were with each other all the time, you know, and um and so I. I always I go back to my parents and apologize a lot because I, literally I was very young when I got married.
Victoria Bowers:I fell in love very young and um, at like 18, and he joined the Navy right out of high school and I just like I knew I like was going to marry him immediately as create, like two weeks after he graduated. I was like two weeks into dating and I was like I'm going to marry this kid and um, and then he joined the Navy and the following year I uh, we got married and I followed him, but it was not 19. You were 19. Got married, I followed him, but it was not 19. You were 19. I was 19 when we got engaged and I had just turned 20. Um, so it was like, right after my 20th birthday, um and so uh, but it was like my parents' divorce had just ended, it was like, and so they were not on the best of terms and I'm like I go back and I'm like I'm so sorry I put you guys during that.
Denise Jackson:But I just I think it was right, it was right.
Victoria Bowers:We laugh about it now, um, cause they they've healed so much in their friends, um and uh, but it was it, it. I was just like I couldn't wait to start my own life. I'm like, okay, I'm like we're going to, you know, go, we're going to live in Virginia, cause I'm I'm from Ohio and we're going to have this totally new life and I can step away from all of this craziness. You know cause? I'm, like everybody knows, I'm from a small town. So, you know, we were pastors here and, like everyone knows, and now everything doesn't look perfect anymore and I need to go, I need to leave, and um, and my, my family jumped. They're like, yeah, you, you ran.
Victoria Bowers:I was like yeah, but it was for love.
Denise Jackson:Okay and no, no. I think that was God's wisdom in you too, because you need to start depending on one another. And it's really hard to do that when you're in the same town with your parents.
Victoria Bowers:Yeah, yeah, and it was. It was such a healing time and, um, my husband and I look back and it was just, it was so blissful because we got married and then, like six months later, we were pregnant with our first and um, and it we just we found a church family and we just for me, it felt like renewing and just something just totally fresh and we were just in our little bubble, like, and then we had our sweet little baby girl and I'm telling you she was an angel. I know I don't want to sound like that mom, but she's, she's typical firstborn Like. She slept through the night at six weeks and I was like, and I remember, as I was like stepping into motherhood and stepping into just being a wife and everything. I'm like I am going to do everything right, like I, everything that I saw that went wrong there, I am going to use it as my guide of what not to do and and I'm going to just be the most perfect mom, perfect wife and um, of course, and then, when you know we're pregnant, I'm trying to do everything right and um and it.
Victoria Bowers:But in the back of my head I'm like, oh, but what if I? What if I make these mistakes? What if I don't, you know, don't follow up and I don't want to hurt this kid. And, um, right, and I'm like how do I parents, you know, and, in a way that you know, honoring the things that I did have but, like you know, not bringing in some of that hurt?
Victoria Bowers:So I felt and I didn't really voice it to my husband at the time because he had such a different childhood, but I still was carrying so much of that and I don't think I had even really acknowledged it to myself. But then she came and it was such bliss, like we had our best friends and we just, you know, had our little. He was in the Navy and we just had our church and we. She was just like the easiest little baby ever and she's so happy all the time and so nursing, all of the things just came really easy. And I remember thinking to myself I was like I don't know who complains, why people complain about motherhood, like I'm a great mom, don't know who complains, why people complain about motherhood, like I'm a great mom okay, you are, but I'm laughing because, yes, we did.
Victoria Bowers:I really I like God needed to be like okay he gave us.
Denise Jackson:I'm thankful for that season because my first was really easy too and um probably thought some of those thoughts and I was younger than, but it was a blessing to have that little season.
Victoria Bowers:It gives you the confidence. Speaking of our baby, I was going to say I have one right here. Did you want to say hi? Is it Emmett? It's Levi, levi, the baby. For everyone who doesn't know, do you want to say hi, hi?
Denise Jackson:Levi. Hi, I just have to say in this little interim, while y'all are loving on each other, that this was such the best season of my life was being a mom to my four children. It was so much fun. I mean, I love my life now. Every season has been great, but I cannot tell you how much fun I had being the mom of four little babies and I want you little friend to be blessed with time to enjoy it, even though there's going to be hard moments, but it is the best time. So you just feel free to let those babies come.
Victoria Bowers:Okay, I'm glad because they probably will pop in.
Denise Jackson:Okay, that's okay okay, so talk to me about um, now, like after that, like like little perfect season. Uh, you told me that Nathan uh got deployed yeah, so that was he had done.
Victoria Bowers:Uh, actually two it was. That was like it was a perfect little bubble and then all of a sudden it it wasn't because he was so he got deployed for six months and then he got to come home on Christmas Eve, which was like so magical, literally it was beautiful and that wasn't too hard and then but he got to come to.
Victoria Bowers:Then he was home for six months. We thought he was going to be home for a really long time and then, um, we found out, oh no, they're sending him back back out and this time he's going to Japan for 11 months and because he was just under that year, we weren't allowed to go with him. And, um, his ship was actually moving ports and it was going to be in a new location. So after a lot of conversation and praying and stuff, he was like I think it's best that you move back home. I'll just plan on getting out after this. And you know, you go back home to family.
Victoria Bowers:So we sold our house and I took Bella and she was two at the time and we, we went back home and being apart that long was so hard and cause he is such a he's, he's very different than like how my family is and he's just he we're. We're all loud and voices. He's quiet, but just a very strong quiet and just has always been this like presence for me. My brothers joke all the time. They're like oh, you are just.
Victoria Bowers:Thank you for our sister Cause he's always just been this calming presence for me, and you know, god just set that up so beautifully for us. But you know, so then going through all that time of not having it, being back at with family and and kind of having God really kind of put it in my face of like, OK, now you get to deal with this stuff, and so everything didn't feel perfect anymore. You know, everything was this perfect little bubble and everything felt so easy. And then he called me and he was like, hey, I've got into this program, I can do, I can finish my degree, but I'm going to have to reenlist for three more years. And so I was like I've moved, we've sold the house, we've done everything. And he's like, yeah, well, we've come back to Virginia. So I was like, okay, I'm going to be supportive wife, go ahead, that's fine.
Victoria Bowers:So then we moved back and then we got pregnant with our second, and so I it things were different, you know, we weren't in the same circles that we had, and just everything felt different when we moved back and I was like, I don't like this, but, you know, trying to get back on track. And then my second came along, and it was a boy this time and we were so excited. But everything could not be more different this time along. So my, my, uh, oldest, she was like preschool age and she's trying to be so helpful but now, all of a sudden, she, for the first time ever, is like having an attitude and upset with me and I'm like what is happening? And it's just so much change had happened for her. And you know, my, my new baby, he's not wanting to nurse, he's not sleeping.
Denise Jackson:That is the fastest way to like insanity.
Victoria Bowers:So you're dealing with this thing inside of you that said, everything needs to be perfect, so it wasn't, no, how?
Denise Jackson:were you responding.
Victoria Bowers:It felt like total mayhem and like you maybe were a failure. At that time it was I, I, just I. It came out you know where I and kind of in bitterness towards my husband because he was doing night school, and so I just felt like I was doing this all alone and um, and then I started having panic attacks and it was like the first time I had ever really experienced like full panic attacks and um, I think, like, looking back, I'm like, oh, I've I've always had this anxiety around being perfect and measuring up, but but never to the point of like having all of these panic attacks and stuff and and so, um, so it just I just felt like a basket case. I was like I didn't even I really withdrew, I didn't want to really hang out with friends.
Victoria Bowers:Um, I had like one friend that I was you know she was, she was in the same exact season, we had our boys the exact same time, but we both kind of like pulled back from each other even. And then, when we finally came together, we're like, oh, we're both going through the same thing, um and so, but I was just, I was so angry and stressed and the harder I would strive, the more everything just felt like that ball unraveling and um and then like to top it all off, stop it all off. Covid happened, and so we we went back home to Ohio um to celebrate Levi's first birthday and we um were, I remember, like school started shutting down and we're like this is really weird, what is?
Victoria Bowers:this and my husband called and he was like hey, I got approved to go home, am I still good? And they're like yeah, you're fine. And so we drove home with two babies and we got into Ohio and the next morning he woke up. I'll never forget this as long as I live. And it was Emmett's first birthday and we woke up. We were at his parents' house and we were planning the birthday party and we were. He was getting ready to go get the cake with his mom and all of his aunts and my family was coming over to his parents' house to celebrate Emmett. And he gets a phone call from the military, as they do, and they're like where are you? And um, and he was. He, uh, was like I'm in Ohio. What do you mean? Yeah, babe, okay.
Denise Jackson:Okay.
Victoria Bowers:Let me take it, sissy, give me just a sec, I'm going to.
Victoria Bowers:So tell us what happened. So, yeah, so they call and they're like where are you? And he's like I'm in Ohio, it's my son's first birthday. No-transcript. And um, and they're like you need to come home now. You need to come back. Like we don't know what's happening. It felt like the world was a thing, um, in that moment. And um, they're like everything is shutting down. We're going to quarantine everybody on a base. And he's like do our families coming? Like should I? And they're like you need to leave your family in Ohio. And it was so scary because we literally had no idea what was going to happen. And I'm crying, my husband's crying, which I've rarely ever seen, cause what's? Yeah, you know what is this?
Denise Jackson:It's one of those tough seen because, yes, what's? Yeah, you know what is this? Right, it's one of those tough guys. Yeah, we're like. What does this mean?
Victoria Bowers:um, his parents are crying and cancel the party, obviously, and so oh, no, poor little, I know, I felt so bad, oh my gosh it was.
Victoria Bowers:It was just like, hey, the emergency is happening, um, and so we like saying happy birthday, and he blew out his candle and then Nathan had to leave, um, and so that moment there I was like, okay, well, what do I do, you know and I don't know what everyone remembers, especially, I think, cause we were in military Like I was hearing so many different things like they're going to short, shut down state lines, and then I'm like what does this mean? Like should I go home and be by myself in Virginia? And so I just I could not. I've had the worst panic attacks I've ever had and my birthday is a couple of days after Emmett's birthday, so it was like my birthday. I ended up driving to go see my dad, cause I was just like I need to, I need to go see my dad, and my uh, my dad lives a few cities over uh or a few towns over from uh where we were, and um, he lives on a big horse ranch and I was like I just need to go see my dad, I need to dress, distract myself. We'll go ride some horses, something, I need, I need something. And um, and I just it was exactly like what I needed, because I got there and I'm just crying and I'm having like horrible panic attacks. I'm trying to hide it Cause I don't want anybody to see that I'm just like struggling as bad as I am.
Victoria Bowers:And my younger brother comes in and he is still living at home and he can't. He catches me in the middle of a panic attack and he just comes over and he hugs me and he's like what's wrong? And I'm just like it just feels like everything is falling apart. It feels like everything that could go wrong, like so much uncertainty, you know. And he was like I think you need to go talk to dad. So I went out to living room once everything was over and I started talking to my dad and I'm just crying and I'm like what does this mean, you know? And I'm just telling him, I'm like this has been the hardest year of my life. Like you know, I've always felt like a good mom, but now I don't and I'm just mad all the time and um, and I remember him looking at me and he was just like baby girl.
Denise Jackson:You already know girl, you already know anxiety is a spirit, and I did. I knew that One of the things that I feel like God was just showing me while you were speaking is it was the spirit of perfectionism that opened the door to that anxiety. Yeah, so you were already dealing with a full on attack of the enemy, and I can see now why. Because, man, you are mighty in the land, you are mighty Victoria, and so he's always going to be coming after the daughters that are like going to cause him issues and he should be afraid, and we are not, especially when we know. So praise God for this conversation already, because we are exposing to the light these spirits that really can cause us to just crumble if we don't understand that we have power over them. Okay, continue.
Victoria Bowers:No, you're so right, and that was what you know. It's like I, sometimes it's like we know it with our brain, but you know, like actually knowing it in our heart. And when he said it, it was like with the most loving, but like you already know this, and I was like, and it was just, you know, it was like just what I need, like a dad you know my dad to be like like you know this. And and I was like, and he goes, you know what are you holding on to so tightly that you can't let God take control? And when I, when he said that I was like everything, like my schedule, my like perfection, my, you know getting everything right, like don't want to get it wrong, and I was holding everything so tight and I knew when, cause, when he said that I'm like, oh, I have known this.
Victoria Bowers:I just didn't want to give him the control. I didn't want to be in a place that I felt vulnerable enough to be like, okay, like mistakes, everything being you know, being like not being perfect, I'm going to, I'm going to just be wrong. And so I was just when I like I, when he said, I just imagined myself like warning everything and um, and he's like you know I mean even our kids, you know, and, and who they? They're gods, you know. So like, oh my gosh, just like love me. And I don't want to mess up, and like I don, I don't you know. And so I was just holding everything so closely that I wasn't trusting God with any of it. And so he was like that I just start really crying and um, which is funny, because like my dad's a big cowboy and he's just like, and he's just like gives me the biggest hug and he's just I don't. I'm not normally like a big, but so I was in a place to be like really crying and he was just like daddy.
Denise Jackson:I love that and we need our daddy. We do need our daddy Really, but it's so nice to have those arms around us from our fathers.
Victoria Bowers:It is, it is and it's like, and just the representation of like heck, the only father you know, representation of like heck, the only father you know. And so, and he just gives me a hug and he was like you know, you just need to surrender it to God. And so I walked away from that conversation and, um, I went downstairs to the room I was staying in and I just I got on my knees and I said, god, I am so sorry. I am so sorry that I have held onto everything so tightly. I'm so sorry that I haven't trusted you. I'm so sorry that I've been trying to control everything, including thinking my way was better than your way. And I said I know you can take this anxiety away from me and I am telling you right now take it away. I'm going to trust you with everything and I never want to have another panic attack again. God don't let me ever experience it. I promise I will give you control of everything, everything.
Denise Jackson:Don't let me have a panic attack again.
Victoria Bowers:I don't want to be the shell of a person. I don't want to live like this and I'm telling you, I never I have not had a panic attack since that's awesome to live like this, and I'm telling you, I never I have not had a panic attack, since that's awesome and so yeah.
Denise Jackson:So, like, so much truth has come out of this conversation, and this is we're going to have more you and I are going to have one coming up soon about motherhood and mothers and how we let go of mothers when they go to be a father, and I'm looking forward to that conversation too. But today I feel like we have exposed things to the light that are major and like, even at this moment, I'm thinking of people I want to send this video to, just so that they can share in the conversation. So, thank you, victoria, so much for being here.
Victoria Bowers:So thank you, victoria, so much for being here. Do you have any words of wisdom to share with those people that maybe are going through exactly the up? Still, you know, and the biggest thing that I am taught over and over and over, when I find myself in a place of striving or find myself in a place of like trying to control, is like there's so much beauty in the mess, there's so much beauty when it's not perfect and there's so much beauty in that hard season that God will, like show his glory. And so the biggest thing, whenever something happens and it just feels and I have those feelings come up inside me, I'm like, okay, god, what do you want me to learn? What do you want me to show? Or how do I get to grow?
Victoria Bowers:Maybe it's I just get to be quiet and sit with you, or maybe I just need to be like okay, god, I know you're going to show me a miracle here. You know whether it's that baby sleeping through the night or just cherishing those sleepless nights as heart and I know I'm kind of I'm still have a little one who doesn't sleep great. So I I not coming from like a place of being like so far removed from that, but being like, oh God, thank you for these beautiful babies, as hard as I can be sometimes, like thank you the fact that I get to be their mama, and it's okay that it doesn't look how I want it to look, cause there's a purpose for it all because there's a purpose for it all.
Denise Jackson:Praise God, okay, well, girls, I'm going to end us with a prayer. So, father God, we just thank you for ordering our steps this morning, for making our words and our meditations pleasing to you, for showing us things that often we can't see in the middle of the struggle, the spirits that are trying to come against us. I just praise you that you opened Victoria's eyes with her daddy not only his hugs but his words to open her eyes to that attack that she was under, as the whole world was under an attack. Father, I thank you that she came out stronger, that she's mighty in the land and that these women who have been listening are experiencing freedom from this spirit of perfectionism and the spirit of anxiety that accompanies it. In the name of Jesus, we bind it and we loose love and peace and joy on women today. In your name, jesus, amen.
